Echographie

Good morning world!
Yesterday was the day that I had my 4th ultrasound of the pregnancy...now the baby is too big to be seen in full on the screen! I could see all the little bones and the heart beating and when the technician zoomed in on the baby's mouth to check for a cleft palate I could see a very nice set of lips, and a cute little nose!!! That was the best part of the ultrasound. The other good part was that the baby moved around the whole time and I like that feeling. This morning I woke up to baby hiccups, from the baby swallowing amniotic fluid. It's so fun being pregnant, there is always something new going on.
We are taking care of Greg's mum's dog while she is in Australia visiting for a month. Kenza is very tiny and she has a bandage around her leg which is endearing; it comes off tomorrow. From what  I understand she has an ingrown toenail, poor little tyke.
As well, the water pipe in our street burst last night and it's like Mars looking out of my kitchen window...apocalyptic. The real bummer is that it's laundry day today!!

Monday

It's a beautiful winter day again. The sun is shining, there is not a cloud in the sky, and I can hear the little creek at the bottom of the drive rushing by. As I look out the kitchen window toward lake Geneva (or Lac Léman) I imagine my day, totally free from obligations of work. What a lucky girl I am!!!
Most weekdays I wake up at 8, kiss Greg goodbye and then stare off into space for 1-2 hours, sometimes in front of the TV, or I bake something. Yesterday I made a zucchini cake with cream cheese icing and my first loaf of real homemade bread. The loaf is all gone today, even after I promised myself I would stop eating wheat because I have a rash on my face.
Next, I psych myself up to do some prenatal yoga with Shiva Rae, a very slimly pregnant yogi in my TV, who is now like my best friend, and the female I spend the most time with. I'm not sure whether I have a pain in my back because the Yoga is releasing old tension or causing new tension. My plan is to keep doing it until the pain goes away.
After Yoga I have a shower and get dressed in an outfit that says "not fat but pregnant" and set my iphone to CBC radio's DNTO with Sook Yin Lee, and go for a walk downtown, happily listening to Sook Yin and my lovely fellow Canadians telling their very familiar stories.

I am a stranger in Switzerland, I walk through the city with some fear of myself, wondering what, if anything, I will do with my time here, other than wait for a baby.
Life is very slow, a little lonely sometimes, but pregnancy has given me an even keel for my moods and a feeling of peace I never had before. I feel more proud of myself and worthy of love and respect.
The problem is that after spending my whole life wishing to have a baby, that being my secret desire and ultimate goal since I can remember, and having found a partner who I love and trust, I am now free to just be me.